don't try to understand

I'm just gonna let the words flow for a bit.

I'm sitting here cooling off after a shower, my mind whirling thru the events of the day. i can't quite remember the times, and the places, and the faces that came; but i can remember some fragments of space. i didn't mail her today, and i didn't feel a thing. but the choice that made me go was her, and saw her i did. i can't quite still look her in the eye, and no one quite knows that, perhaps a few, perhaps some, perhaps none at all, at that.

anyway. i think its impossible. unfortunately. lets just leave it at that.

the other two faces that i never did see, today by one way or another, did hear from me. to each a memory, perhaps a lil taste... of what could be forbidden fruit, or what could be cake. (go figure.) asides, for them, i think its over, to much of the extent, but i guess i am willing, for them to accept. mostly.

a new one today? perhaps i have met. but... yet i don't wish to by looks just be met. i want to seek deeper, higher, not for i am made that way. but because i need to, should my core focus stay. yet... difficult it is, even as today i have seen. in the natural way, it all, but seems like a dream.

but live in the norm, i do not comply, for my life is is His, and for Him i will die. for better for worse, till death does unite. Forever then will i be, with my one heart's delight.