the sun is up!

in more ways than one it seems.

the most obvious of which is, the oh-so-hot weather with its ever blazing sun. I'm not much of an air-con person, but I was so thankful for air-conditioned buses and buildings today, as i went on a short travelling trip from camp to NUS and back. even the short walk from the bus-stop back to camp was terrible.

other things, i'm finally... settling back into my everyday back to camp mood. it doesn't help that many of my friends will ORD in a months time, but I'm finally getting over that mood. haha... its bad really, when i'm in that sorta "wanna ORD" mood, i get so disillusioned about the army that i get quite depressed and all that. its still a long 8 months away, so i might as well make the best of it and work hard and well here.

its hard really; working hard for people you may not like, doing things that have no meaning, struggling with doing your best for God while dealing with the whole concept of not letting people take advantage of you, not setting yourself up to be an 'arrow'-target board, all while many many eyes knowingly look on you as you do your work.

well... sorry if i'm not very coherent. haha. its been a rather long day. slow, empty, and dreadfully long. its a rather poor excuse. heh.

anyway, other than that, i realise that the last 1 and a 1/2 years have passed by woefully unfruitfully in certain ways. I've grown tremendously spiritually, but along the way i've sort of forgetten what its like to hang with friends, go out, have fun generally. i've also sorta loosened my grip on my finances; money seems to slip through my fingers way too quickly these days. from being able to save even in harsh months, i'm now... spendrift. goodness i never thought i would wear that coat. :|

but, trying to change again. its gonna be an odd balance i guess, going out more often and using less cash. :D but well... its something i believe i can change with God's help. :)